God sent my daughter to save my life. And I don’t say that lightly.

The months leading up to getting pregnant with her were some of the darkest.
My heart was broken.
My identity was lost.
My motivation was gone.
The pain of that season was so very real. And honestly, it still hurts to think about it.

But I’m also so stinking grateful for it, because that pain led me to my greatest calling – being a mother.

And God faithfully used her to carry me through all the rough waters I was about to endure.
Military hardships.
Rejection.
Financial stress.
Life changing decisions.
Depression and anxiety.

The first year and a half of her life was chock full of heartbreaking circumstances, let alone the challenges of becoming a first time mom on top of that.

But God… He knew.
He knew I needed her.
He knew she would make me smile on the days full of tears.
He knew she would give me purpose through the most horrific pain.
He knew she would remind me of his constant love for me when I felt so far from lovable.

He knew.
And He still does.

She is my constant reminder of His goodness, and my constant motivation to keep fighting the good fight.
And I thank God every single day for sending the sweetest soul to be my baby girl.

Saydie Marie, you are the definition of a miracle.
I love you more than you’ll ever know.