Sitting here writing this is surreal. They say a lot can happen in a year and my life was totally wrecked this past year.
August 12, 2017 I was sitting in a hotel room with the guy I was currently dating after attending one of my favorite artist concerts. I should have been on a high from all the excitement of the night but as I laid there I was fighting an internal battle. For the millionth time in the last several months I was asking myself what was I doing? This is not the life I imagined for myself. At 26 I wanted to be married and about to have my second child. The second child was an option but marriage, or even a committed relationship was nowhere in sight. Was I wasting my time with this guy? Or should I give him more time to see I was the one?
I was honestly tired of the internal battle I had been dealing with. I knew God, but like Bey and Jay I was on the run from having a real relationship with God.
I knew something had to change. But how? I was so desperate. I remember silently crying out to God to just show me how to get the life I knew he had for me. God had never spoke so clearly to me. I knew I had to drop everything that was my comfort and have a real relationship with him.
I was just like Peter, I dropped my fishing net and followed Jesus. I had so much peace about it. I knew this was the only way I could have the life God had for me and I never looked back.
During this last year God has taken a broken, insecure girl and molded me into the confident woman I am today. I know God is still working on me but He has already brought me so far. The things I desired were given to me in ways that were better than I could imagine. God showered me with so much love and truly aligned me to encounter different people and ministries at the perfect time.
Putting down my ways and truly following Jesus with all my heart has been the best decision I have ever made. God has provided me friends for life, an amazing mentor, and so much peace. This journey has not always been easy, walking outside of your comfort zone never is, but I would not change one thing about it.
On August 12, 2017 I changed the entire trajectory of my life. I surrendered my life to Christ.